Boundless, indiscriminate compassion.

I’m not always kind or pleasant and haven’t been for the last week with all the trolls and oppressors. I have been arguing & sh!tposting all week Lol I don’t believe everyone deserves kindness always.

But I never wish d3ath or suffering on anyone and in general would go to great lengths to stop it even for someone I don’t like. I have even been called an enabler and “mental” because of some of the people I would save.

I wouldn’t be friends with just anyone or let just anyone into my space. But there are very few people I wouldn’t go to great lengths to save (people who would use it for evil actions and have the power to in a large scale way) and no one I would get joy out of seeing them suffer.

This may be considered by many as not a good thing, but it actually is because even if it’s not good to help or care about “bad people,” my compassion embraces all the good and average people as well. There are way too many people who don’t care about anyone at all. I much prefer someone who cares about everyone than no one. To me just being a sentient being makes someone worthy of basic compassion. Kindness? Not necessarily. Forgiveness? Again, not necessarily. But compassion, yes. This isn’t a philosophy or argument, it’s just the way I naturally am. I have always been this way. I don’t expect everyone to agree, and most people probably don’t. I don’t think it’s necessarily better or worse, just different.

I’m also overly empathetic (empathy is different than compassion, but the two are often mistaken as the same) and cannot stand it. It’s mostly only with physical pain/suffering. When someone is suffering physically, even a terrible person or character in a fiction movie, I feel literally like I’m being t0rtured. I can’t bear it and can’t even watch those scenes. My compassion is something I have always experienced. But I think the empathy came later. I always had basic empathy just like everyone else, but the more developed empathy I have now I think came years ago after I began getting recurring devastating & debilitating headaches. It’s not a choice or train of thought or philosophy. And it’s not something I want. I can’t even watch horror movies I want to watch when there are too many graphic scenes because I feel like my own guts are being carved out. And after I turn it off it takes me a while to recover psychologically.

If I could flip a switch or give up a piece of myself to stop all the suffering in the world even for “bad people,” I wouldn’t hesitate even if it meant I had to take on some pain myself. I absolutely cannot stand illness & suffering. No matter who it is experiencing it.

Xoxo Kim 😘